I wish I could tell you that I have been doing great...

But I can't. I've been eating way too much. I hate myself. What is wrong with me? Like, yesterday I went to a party and I drank more than I planned, and I ate 6 homemade muffins, a homemade hamburger and some potato chips! Why? I'm so depressed right now. I just want to lie down and cry.
And school is already killing me. I have so much homework.
I've thought about blogging for a week now, but I didn't want to blog when I failed every day :( Well, as you can see, I blogged today anyway.

Something positive: I bought a new pair of jeans a few days ago, and they are in size XXS! Omg! They are quite tight, but I can close them (maybe not when I have eaten a lot). I guess the only reason they fit is because they are very stretchy, but it feels so good to know you can fit in a pair of jeans in size XXS. The sizes varies so much from shop to shop, I bought another pair of jeans too (in another shop) and they are in size S (I could have bought XS, but they vere so tight that they looked like tights, lol).

Taco

There is a boy in my class I like, and I've liked him for quite a while. We are friends, and he is a really nice guy, but unfortunately I don't think we will be more than friends. Anyway, today I told him that I was cold, and he looked at me and told me that thin people freeze moe easily than "regular" people. And he told me that my arms looked "sickly thin". He doesn't know that I've got a lot of fat on my hips and stomach, and that my legs are fat. My arms are actually the only part of me that I can like, the only part that is thin enough. I've always had thin arms.
Well, I took it as a compliment, but I could not tell him.
And later, when we were eating lunch, he was like "OMG, are you only going to eat two crispbreads?!". I kind of felt successful. But I ate more than I should today...

I've eaten three crispbreads today (with cheese), taco, a banana and a yoghurt. It's about 700 calories. I should have done better (I love taco, lol), but I'll just have to try harder tomorrow. I think I can stay pretty low cal.

I'm sorry I haven't commented much these last days (I have read your blogs), I'll try to comment more ;)

School...

I haven't been able to blog until now, because I haven't been much home the last days.
School started again today, and I'm afraid I won't be able to blog every day. This is my last year at school, so I really have to do my best. I hate school right now, and I haven't even really started yet. My new schedule sucks, too!

I haven't been doing so great the last days. But, at least I haven't gained any weight. But I really need my "super control" back. I'm probably going to a party on saturday, and I want to get drunk, but there are so many calories in alcohol. I guess I have to just drink it really fast, but the intake will be at least 1000 calories anyway, and I know I have to eat something too. Fuck, I don't know what to do! I wish I didn't like the feeling of beeing drunk.

Haha, and it made me happy to see that one on the thin girls at school that I don't like have gained weight this summer. I know it sounds evil, but it made me feel better.

Aw, I've missed you all!

Cake

Fuck, I failed. I went over to a friend of mine, and her mother had made a marzipan cake (or whatever you call it), and I ate a slice. I could not think of any good reason for not eating it.
Luckily I didn't have any dinner, so my calorie intake for today was about 530.

I 've been walking (quite fast) for nearly 2 hours today, and I jogged for about 15minutes. Wow, I thought the day had been really bad, but when I look at it now, it doesn't seem that bad after all. I'm really relieved!

My mom asked me if I eat enough, maybe she has seen that I eat less than I used to. I'll have to make it look like I eat more than I actually do, or she will probably start to watch me extra carefully, and I don't want that to happen!

Stay strong<3

TokyoBambi

Hi!

So TokyoBambi is new to this place (welcome!), and I thought it would be nice to introduce her, just like xthinforever did to me.
She's 5'3 and 46kg and she's really beautiful, and sounds like a really nice girl :) She has only got one follower (me) so she would probably like to have some more followers.

Thank you so much for your support :) I'll write more tonight.

Mackerel is a fish, btw ;)

Mackerel in tomato sauce

Than you so much, all of you! I'm so glad I finally made this blog. And I really appreciate those who follows me =)

I've eaten 210 calories this far today, and we'll have chicken, rice and vegetables for dinner, so I think I can keep it pretty low today. I hope so.

Btw: Do you have mackerel in tomato sauce where you live? It's one of my favorite spreads. I think it's kind of a "scandinavia phenomenon" though. It is at least very popular over here. I I had to have some this morning, because I couldn't stop thinking about it last night x]

I will not be able to post or comment anythig uintul tomorrow, I'll miss you. Take care <3

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Wow, thanks for the support! You are so kind, and I din't really expect to get that much attention :P Wow, and thank you, xthinforever! That was so kind of you =)

Ok, so I'm just answering everyone here instead of writing to every one of you.

Ana's Girl: Thanks! Aw, that sucks, and it will probably seem a bit suspicious if you ask her about buying one all the time.

Le faim: Thanks, but I'm seriously not that thin...

heather[hunger]: I would guess so. I mean, it's America, you have so many other things, so I would believe you have crispbreads too. I eat those form Wasa and Ryvita. Well, it's actually kind of pretty here, we have all these fjords and mountains, but I don't like the weather. And it's boring here. I live in the biggest city, but we're still only about 579 000 inhabitants. But the tap water tastes good! Haha, I don't really like the bottled water.

Stick Thin: Yeah, and it was all just so confusing. The other blog was written in Norwegian, so "sadly" I didn't experience any of that, but I already feel as home here. Thank you :)

pokerface: You're welcome :) Oh, thanks. I hope it will continue to improve as I write more. Yeah, I think she starts to get a little suspicious, so I will just pretend I eat more. It's very annoying, though. Thanks!

Aspartame Freak: Oh, that's nice! :)

I've eaten about 480 calories today. I'm so glad my family normally eat quite healthy dinners. It makes the job a lot easier for me. We ate salmon and salad (green salad, tomato, paprika, cucumber and corn) today, so took a piece of salmon and just filled up the rest of the plate with salad, so that it would look like I ate a lot.

YAY!

I've lost weight! I was 45kg (about 99.2 lbs) this morning : D And my mother is working today, so I don't have to eat that much today.
I've eaten two crispbreads (30 calories each), and that means I've eaten about 80 calories for breakfast. Crispbread is soo much better than regular bread. Those I eat are pretty thin, but thery're only 30-35 calories each. They taste good, and they are pretty healthy too.

Rain

I ate about 580 calories today. I have to eat when my mom is home, or else she will get suspicious. At least I went for a walk today, and I jumped on my trampoline for about 15 minutes, before it started raining. The weather in Norway is so fucked. I mean, the whole winter is soo cold, and it is either snowing or raining. November to March is just too cold and dark for me. It is dark by 16.00 in the winter, and that sucks. The summer isn't that bad. It can be pretty nice.

I'm probably seeing my best friend some time this week, and I'm really looking forward to it. The only problem is that she doesn't eat that healty, and when I'm sleeping over at her house we always end up eating a lot of snacks. And still she looks great.

Pizza...

I ate 4 pizza slices. Thats 378 calories. I have eaten 621 calories today, and that's not too bad actually, but I din't really need more than 2 slices of pizza. I normally eat 500-700 calories every day. I wish I could eat 300 or something, but I just end up bingeing , so I'm eating a bit more instead.

I'm not going to eat anything more today, maby I will have a cup of tea, but that's only 1 calorie anyway.

Hello!

Ok, so I had another blog at livejournal, but livejournal isn't working right now, and I din't like livejournal  anyway.
So, I'm a 17 years old girl from Norway.  I would really like to become skinny, so I'm doing my best.

I'm:

1,61 m (5'3)
CW: 46kg (101.4)
HW: 52kg (112.4)
GW: 40kg (88)

Aw, and I wish my scale showed weight in pounds, not kg. It isn't even digital, and my mom won't buy a new one, because "We don't use it that much anyway"...

And I'll do my best, but I know that my english isn't perfect :( Feel free to correct my mistakes.